[Stardust]

If this is the case NCF let me give you some advice. You can take it or not, thats cool either way. Ive had a terrible 2009 in some respects and in some not so bad. The good- Steelers win the superbowl, and Im not dead, although by all accounts and witnesses, I SHOULD be. The bad- I got crushed in the mines in March and probably wont be able to work a manual labor job again. My vertabraes and spine are destroyed, and surgery is only going to give me a minimal improvement in my quality of life. That girl I was telling you about, dumped me while I was bedridden and needed her the most. I suffer from PTSD, dont sleep and have suffered from depression for the first time in my life. Ive never felt so useless and worthless in my life. If I cant benefit our society by working and earning a paycheck, I really struggle with daily life. I cant get out of a chair or bed without almost crying because it hurts so bad. But that didnt stop her from dumping me. I was so good to her and her little boy. I never did anything wrong to her. I became something that "reminded her that she couldnt lose anybody again" or whatever bull**** that is. So anyways, while Im sharing these details with you, I had to do SOMETHING. Let me tell you man, music can cure a hurt soul. I had never had my heart broken before. I had never been depressed. Nothing like that ever affected me. EVER. But recently, I started learning to play guitar. Im not that good at it right now. I can play some bass and Im a fairly good drummer, but I always wanted to learn to play guitar. It has been somewhat of a life saver. I have become obsessed with being the next Pre-Eagles Joe Walsh, lol..It has really changed my life, in a good way. Music is amazing. It soothes. And it heals. If there is something you want to learn to play, it will take your mind off of all that nonsense your going through. This week Im getting an Epiphone Les Paul 100 guitar with a practice amp, and brother, I CANT WAIT!!!! Give it a shot QUOTE=Stardust;798883]I don't buy it NCF. I think you're hurting.... You've got someone on your mind that you can't seem to get over. I've heard it in some of your other threads. Let her go, live on and be happy. No one can make you happy but YOU!

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Good post partner! :Thumbs: