[Spirit100]

I have a request. I lost my Mother to Cancer on November 8th. I am having a difficult time trying to cope with it and it is hard to do. I have not went to church in years, and honestly the way my mother had to go I am kind of felling anger towards the creator for letting her suffer in such an inhumane way before she died. She was in so much pain. My mother was the sweetest, kindest, selfless person I know and he let her suffer for months. A prayer and some advice would really help because I am losing what little faith I had.

My condolences on the passing of your Mom. I can relate to your Moms passing having lost mine to breast cancer under very similar circumstances almost twenty years ago.

Be sure to surround yourself with good people in the days and weeks ahead that you can be honest with, confide in, and vent, very much like you did here. It's OK to feel the way you do....I'd recommend having a few really good grieving crys if you haven't already done so. Sounds like she was a fantastic person and here's the catch. SHE STILL US...just walking out life on a spiritual plain that is foreign to us until we are called home.

I was very angry for at least 10 years after my Mothers passing that effected my life and others in more ways than I care to admit. So I'll offer you this.....things are very raw right now as they should be. Celebrate her goodness and focus on how you honor that good in her by how you carry yourself.

It wasn't until I began having a perspective of gratitude vs. loss that I began to heal. I tell you that BF so you don't carry anger in your heart 10 years from now like I did.

You will be alright....many others have walked the path you are currently on. Accept the loss, grieve the loss, have faith she is in no pain and at the side of an all loving Father in Heaven. Find solace in that reality.

I knew there was a reason the good Lord woke me up on Thanksgiving at 4am and brought me to this thread on bgr....

Feel free to PM me BF and know I'll be praying for you today and in the days ahead for peace, understanding, and healing. One day at a time!!! :Thumbs: